Thursday, August 27, 2015

Why we chose to homeschool

Lets talk homeschool.

I had a whole post typed up and saved on March 28th.  All I needed to do was it edit.  Then Bam! After 6 days of extra baking, Sutter Grace made hear appearance and that little post got pushed to the side.  Last week I went to edit it and some how deleted the whole thing.  I was not happy to say the least.   But anyways here it goes, we will see how long it takes to publish this.

March of 2014 we were trying to get pregnant again, Brighton wasn't the easiest baby in the world, and Fuss' kindergarten registration deadline was quickly coming.   I had always planned on homeschooling my kids but I was maxed out and didn't think I could add homeschooling, so we looked for an alternative and settled on the local charter school.   The fact that it wasn't a Christ based education environment bothered me more than I can say but like I already stated I was super overwhelmed and didn't know how to do add something else.  Another thing, where would I homeschool?  I had gotten it in my head that I needed a homeschool room (one too many blog posts read).  

So we did the charter school thing.  She started in August and by September I wasn't overly happy with it.  I felt there was way too much screen time going on in school and not enough actual learning.  Plus there was like 2 hours of homework each night which seemed ridiculous to me.   But Fuss was enjoying it and I decided to at least stick it out for the full year and then reevaluate at the end of the year but we were pretty sure that homeschooling would be our plan.   '

November rolled around and we started noticing a lot of behavioral problems.   The few hours a day she was home, I was constantly disciplining her.   She knew better than to act out at school so she did it at home.   Jeremy and I talked and decided one of us needed to volunteer in her class to see what was going on.    After spending a day at school with her, I realized that this was no longer a good fit.  We decided not to send her back after Christmas break.  Well then Jeremy got laid off and there was no way we could shell out the money for curriculum right at that moment but the first thing we did when he got his job back at the end of January was order curriculum.

Last year, I was still maxed out.  I couldn't plan or be in charge of teaching Fuss.   So we used Abeka Video for her and I loved it.  She loved it.   It was the best fit for our family.  All I had to do was make sure she knew which worksheet she was supposed to be doing and grade it.   This year I had planned to do the same thing for 1st grade but the closer we got too the start of the school year the more I realized I wanted to change things up yet again.

I had been reading about the classical education model and knew that it was more what I wanted for our family.  I love the focus on grammar during wait for it, the grammar phase.  Something I seriously suck at.   But another thing that really resonated with me, the lack of technology dependence.   I know this is not for everyone but I don't feel that my 6 year old needs to use a computer for the majority of her schooling.   Computers open up a whole world I don't want her exposed too.  Porn.   Read the statistics.  They are not pretty and anything I can do to delay the exposure for as long as possible, I am going to do.   I also don't want to make her dependent on a technology that is going to be out dated in 10-20 years.  Hello typewriter.   When it is time for her to start using the computer, I will gladly welcome it in.  I love computers but I don't want it to be a main focus right now.   I would much rather equip her in learning how to learn, that way when something new is thrown at her she can tackle it.

Do I think homeschooling my kids will save them?  No.  I know I can't decide for them.  All I can do is expose them to God, show them why my relationship with Jesus is everything to me, and model Jesus.   I don't want them to have my faith, I want them to own their own faith.   But in the end they get to choose, just like I did.   More than anything I want my kids to have a personal relationship with Christ but I also know that I have so very little control over it.  Does that mean I am going to throw them to the wolfs and let them figure it out on their own, nope but I also can't live my life in fear.

Do I think I will have perfect kids because I homeschool them?  Can you hear me laughing?  Yesterday when I was talking to my mom on the phone, I was yelling at one and trying not to loose my shit at another one for spitting in the house.  Hello, I am a sinner.  My kids are sinners.  I do the best I can.  I try to raise them to have a godly character but there is the little thing called free will.   And as long as we have free will, there will be sin.  Do I think it would be easier if free will didn't exist, oh heck yes but then how would we ever know just how much we need Jesus?

Will my children be the weird unsocialized, oddly dressed homeschool kids?  Probably.  Have you met me?  I am as antisocial as they come.   People exhaust me.   Oddly dressed?  Well yesterday Bristol was wearing 5 different patterns and did her own hair so I will let you be the judge that.  

All this to say, public school wasn't working for our family so we made a decision to change that.  Will I homeschool forever?  I have no clue.  I think I will do it until Jeremy is done with school because it allows for more family time.

So there it is.  our reasons.  I know I forgot a ton.

Now I need to get Sutter down for her morning nap and get a little house work done.

Questions?  Ask away.

Tuesday, August 25, 2015


Hello blog,

It has been a while.   Life is busy.  So let me share a few random blurbs with you.

Sutter was our name if it was a boy or a girl but now I can't picture Sutter being anything but a girl name.  Sweet Sutter Grace.

Why haven't I been blogging?  I'm not sure.  On one hand, a lot of bloggers I used to love are becoming so marketed. Robotic.   And I don't want to be like that.  I want to be real.  But at the same time I want to protect my kiddos.   I don't want people to decide they are bad seeds because we are going through a rough patch.  I also don't want anyone to think I have it all together because I don't.  I have some areas together but I am a complete mess in others.   So I am trying to figure out what blogging looks like these days.  And also I don't want to be judged which is so ironic because if I am being truthful, I struggle with being judgmental.  It isn't something I am proud of, it is something God is definitely working on in my life. A lot of times by showing me how my judgmental ways affect others.  I am thankful that He still finds me in need of refining.  

Lately I have been struggling big time with motherhood.  I am lost in it, drowning, sinking.  I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that I am an introvert living in a house full of people and rarely get time to myself to recharge which is such a vital thing for me.   I also am feeling like I have nothing for myself.   It hasn't been easy.  I am thankful for a husband who gets me and pushes me to find myself again.   I am thankful for a God who comforts my soul.   I finally feel like I am getting back to normal.

School started this week for Jeremy and that means it's back to crazy town for us.  But something I wasn't going to share and then decided to share is I also started school this week.   In the midst of being lost in motherhood, Jeremy enrolled me in school.  He saw that I was drowning and needing something for myself so he told me to do something for myself.  I am taking 2 classes.  I am terrified.  I am extremely excited. I keep asking myself how I am going to have time to do everything.  Now I need to go buy a magnifying glass to read the text in my design book.   

Social media.  I am finding it less of a daily necessity.  Yes I enjoy getting on there and posting picture updates but I also find I am enjoying it less and less.  I want more real life.  And books.  I think my library hold list is at 30 something right now with 23 books checked out.   I need to get the kids their own cards so I have more space on mine.

I finally got all of our curriculum in and now I am going through the tedious process of scheduling it all out.  Maybe I will get to a post about that soon.  Maybe not.  I still haven't even posted about why we made the switch mid year last year.  In my defense I had it all typed up and ready to publish about 2 days before Sutter was born and then boom we had a baby.  I went to edit it last week and accidentally deleted it.

This book was awesome.  I loved it.  I don't know what more to say to convince you to go read it but seriously amazing.  I loved it so much that when I finished the library's copy, I went and bought my own.  I think I shared over half the book with Jeremy by either reading it aloud to him or sending him text messages of it while he was at work.

Another really good read.  I  liked how the author encouraged you to give your children a sense of purpose.  I fell this is really lacking in our society today.  

This is hard.   I never thought I would be so broken hearted about one of our pets dying.  Last Sunday Bo passed away.  Look at my little guy.  Wasn't he precious.   It was a really hard week.  Fuss cried most of it, we were all emotional.  I was beating myself up.    This week has been a little easier.  Less crying.   Today Eldon brought me a dandelion because he forgot Bo died.  I cried. He loved dandelions.  The kids really want to get another tortoise but that isn't so easy, the only reason we had him was because a cat or a bird dropped him in our drive way.    So we are praying.  I am sad he is gone but I am thankful God blessed us with him for a year.  

And that is that.  This post took you every which way.

Friday, August 7, 2015


How is it that I never shared Sutter's newborn photos with y'all?   Cinnamon did an amazing job with these pictures.  She likes to say she isn't a newborn photographer, I on the other hand 100% disagree. They turned out amazing.  She had a tough job that day, Brighton wanted nothing to do with the camera and Sutter wanted nothing to do with sleeping.    Now I need to find some wall space for prints.  

Thursday, August 6, 2015

Four Months

Sweet Girl.  4 months old.   Like your daddy says, you have given us back out love for the newborn stage.  Such a sweet little girl.  You have your moments but for the most part you are a dream baby.

This month you have decided that mommy no longer gets to rock you to sleep for your mid afternoon nap instead you have to take it in the crib.     Just so you know, your spoiled self was the only one who got that privilege.  You are still sleeping about 12 1/2 to 13 hours every night.   And you roll everywhere.  And I do mean everywhere.  Oh and smiling for that camera isn't your thing.    One//Two//Three//Four//Five//Six//Seven//Eight//Nine//Ten//Eleven//Twelve

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